TGIF

Shhh, don't tell anyone but the best part of my TGIF is that I get to work this weekend.

I stay home all week to take care of my family and home.  Current needs and logistics just don't mesh with my working on weekdays right now so I'm limited to weekends.  Thankfully, as a nurse, I have very flexible options so I'm able to work every other weekend (or something like that depending on what is going on in the kiddo's lives).

When people ask me why I work, the answer is easy.  For me.  Yes, the extra money is nice but work is my sanity.  I love what I do and I need to do it.  And by feeding that part of me, I'm a better mom, wife, and person.  Too many times during the week, I feel lost because I don't know whats going on with my son or how to best help him.  I feel lost because I'm overwhelmed by life.  My career centers me and reminds me of who I am, it helps me feel in control and useful - feelings that are sometimes lost at home.

For those 12 hours each day, autism doesn't rule my world. Its there, always in the back of my mind and in my heart, but its not front and center, in my face, all day.  I can breathe.  I don't have to worry about moving wrong, saying something wrong, or doing something that will set off a meltdown.  And then, after a long but fulfilling day, I can come home to the best hug and kiss a mom could ask for.

So TGIF.